Thankfulness, The Best Fix

Dear J,

Although today is one of the many special days in my life (my eldest son's birthday), I woke up a little blah.

BLAH! BLAH!

As a result, I desired to cancel my regular routine and dig in to see what was up. Not sure why I felt the need to do that because this feeling was lurking since the day before. And you know what that means J: Deep in my subconscious, I already knew some if not all the problems. Nonetheless, I went with my mind and prayed and meditated.

After a long time of trying to focus, I finally got into the groove. I was able to shift my thoughts to my breath. I am not a doctor, but this really helps me focus. And it did! I sat for a while, and like a light bulb, my thoughts revealed to me the area that needed repair.

J, it was my gratitude meter; it was unbalanced (okay, maybe non-existent for a moment). It seems the issue that had been bothering me for more than a day consumed my mind so much that I couldn't see or even focus on any of the grateful things in my life. I have to admit that at first, I tried to ignore the message, but after some time, I decided to submit to the revelation.

It is amazing how we (well, maybe just me) try to trick ourselves into believing that we are the last to know the origin of what I call blah-ness. Nonetheless, I decided to shift my mental focus and find one thing to be thankful for. After the first, I was surprised at how another thing came to mind, and then another and another.

After hearing you are alive, your family is well, you have a roof over your head, a mind full of brilliant ideas, and a few other things I am thankful for. I began to feel a little smirk developing on my face. Being grateful, refocused, realigned, and recentered me. It pushed my thoughts beyond the one thing that wasn't working and anchored it on all the many blessings in the works. I left my morning prayer and meditation knowing that even if my level of optimism dropped throughout the day, gratitude would be the immediate fix that would put me back on track.

Until next time, J!

Love,

Mel